No, it’s not even as simple as not being sure. I’ve never liked wishy-washy girls that strung guys along (or vise versa). I think a part of me is sure that I like this guy. That just makes everything worse. I’m doing my best to completely sabotage any potential for a relationship, but I can’t just burn the bridge. ME, not being able to burn a bridge. I’m practically a professional relationship arsonist, and that’s just with people in general. I’ve never gotten this close to a guy before. It freaks me out to write about it, because writing it down like this, in simple terms, means that I can’t ignore it anymore. I have to deal with it.
But you know, denial works too.